Thursday, 09 July 2009
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Hey, I've seen this movie before
Sometimes it gets boring and tiring knowing what's gonna happen next. I'm not talking about the bigger picture of life but rather daily happenings. And how would I know what's up next? Coz I planned it all.
I miss the element of surprise. The little good things that happen unexpectedly. Having a daily job that's almost like being a high class factory worker (input, process, output, report) is just all the more making me yearn for some life in things outside that world. And yet, I know every step of the way from the moment I step out of my office till I sleep. The whole cycle happens again the day after, week after. All well planned. By me. It's like watching a movie that you've seen before and you know what's gonna happen next. The funny thing is, God hasn't been intervening for quite some time now so whatever is planned, happens. I dunno if that's good or bad but sometimes I feel like I'm carrying something really heavy on my back. It's aching like crazy. (literally)
I'm tired of "planning" the next step. If nothing happens, so be it. Even if it means missing a movie, skipping lunch etc. So tired.
just.so.tired.
I need a self-soul-searching getaway after all this. I can't wait for Bali. I don't need anymore questions. Just answers.
Ok God, you can get back behind the wheel. I just wanna lie down at the back of the car and sleep for a while. Maybe for a long while. You know best.
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Comments (4)
I think it's more akin to watching a movie you've directed or wrote the script for.
Anyhow, maybe you could do something spontaneous. Something random. Like you could suddenly 'happen' to be in putrajaya. *whistles*
Well, no, but really... It doesn't have to be something big k. Just something you don't usually do, or wouldn't expect to find yourself doing. Mite help. A wee bit. At least for half a week or something.
Keeping you in prayers always :)
Thanks Sable.
Yes the spontaneous happening sounds like the perfect medicine to it all. But even that has to happen at the "right time".
Putrajaya? I think I need somewhere much further. 
Hey Celine,
Wow. Life is getting too routine even for the ever happening & outgoing Celine.
Yea, I guess once ur work life is established and stable, a routine life is just inevitable.
Well like u've said, it's better to be leading a planned life than a life
where u won't know what's gonna happen tmr. That's even more risky.
Unless ur a risk-adverse kind of person.
Yea, time to do some soul-searching and a trip to Bali sounds like a good get-away.
Be sure to let loose in Bali. But u gotta be careful in Bali as there were some recent bombings in the major Ang Moh hotel residences and city areas.
But knowing u, I'm sure u'll do just fine in life.
U just need a bit of wake-up call from time to time and some "spices" in life.
My 20 cents.
@adhew7 - Yo. Thanks for your 20cents. That's the price of a cup of coffee/milo in my office.
Yeah, gotta keep my head up in Bali. It's a nasty world out there and danger could be lurking in every corner but hey, that's the fun of it all. haha. lots to do and see.
Cheers!